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Why Is Stillness Scary?

The LORD will fight for you; you need only to be still.
Exodus 14:14

When the sea is calm, it can be quite eerie.

A few months back, I went to my hometown with a good friend to visit some islands.

There were basically 4 people in a small fisherman boat – 2 boatmen, me and my friend. We left the port at 7 am and luckily, the sea was calm. So calm that about an hour into the sea, we suddenly felt something was quite different.

Everything was perfect – the wind was still, the place was quite, the boat is stable and it was glassy on water.

Psalm 107:29 – He stilled the storm to a whisper; the waves of the sea were hushed.

That stillness of the water scared me. There was no wind, there was no wave…just pure calmness.

And THAT freaked me out.

The same way I cannot stay still when something chaotic is happening to me. I need to do something, I need to solve the problem, I need to hurry. I have a lot of things on my mind that I worry too much. I forget the most important thing – to look at Jesus, put my worries in His hands and be STILL.

I am not saying that we actually don’t do anything and just lie down and wait. What we need is prayer – heartfelt prayer to God so He could open our eyes to what we should do – in His way, not our way.

Why is stillness scary?

Let’s face it – we are used to not being still. Personally, I get scared when everything is going so smoothly in my life because I would always think something is surely going to go wrong. What an awful way of thinking, right?

Then I learned that I should put all my worries to God and just put my TRUST in HIM.

Why are we scared to be still?

It must be because we lack faith. If we have more faith in the Lord, we won’t worry about such things. We fail to see the beauty and stillness that’s right in front of us because we are too busy thinking about what’s coming ahead.

In Mark 4:39-40, Jesus asked His disciples about being afraid of the turbulent:

And He got up and rebuked the wind and said to the sea, “Hush, be still.” And the wind died down and it became perfectly calm. And He said to them, “Why are you afraid? Do you still have no faith?”

At that moment, I failed to appreciate the stillness of the sea because I lack faith. Because if I have sufficient faith, I know that Jesus will not let anything happen to me. After all, He can command the waves and the wind and they  would obey Him. After all, He has the authority over nature.

So the next time you are overwhelmed with worries and fears, remember Jesus when he rebuked the wind and sea. Remember Him as he asked, “Why are you afraid? Do you still have no faith?”

With Jesus, nothing is impossible. All we need is faith in Him.


Chapter 4: The Effects of the Media Revolution

Media forms such as television, smart phones, print media, radio and Internet rule the world right now. It is almost impossible for anyone not to be connected to any part of the world.

In my case, the Internet and mobile phone have a huge impact on my every day life – whether inside or outside of my home.


Media and My Walk with Christ
It is hard to classify media as something negative or positive to someone’s journey with the Lord. What it brings is impact into your life. Whether that is a negative or a positive impact, it all depends on the person.

Some people claim that media has greatly affected their life negatively. For me, I highly think that the measure of influence is dictated by how much the person is willing to be influenced. This is an individual’s personal discretion.

I believe that one of the negative effects of these forms of media for me is distraction. Since there is a plethora of information available online, it can sometimes be difficult to sift the ones that really matter from those that can be considered as superficial needs of an individual.

Time is also another thing taken by social media right now. Instead of spending some quiet time with the Lord, I find myself talking to people and friends or checking out all amusing stories and pictures all the time that I forget to have that important time with God.

It also inevitably let myself be surrounded with gossips, unhealthy comparisons, dislike and perversion – things that were mentioned by the Lord in Proverbs 4:24 “Keep your mouth free of perversity; keep corrupt talk far from your lips.

Good Side Of Internet

Internet allows me to connect with all great people who follows God. Meeting and listening to sermons of certain Pastors and learning how to study the Bible from different godly women helped and encourage my faith.

I do not have any mentors so being able to listen to them talk online and connect with them online, I kind of form accountability in studying the word of God. It is great to be inspired by these experienced pastors who have been obviously anointed.

At the same time, some of the things that I cannot easily access have now been accessible. I can always read the Bible anywhere because of different apps.

Media and Personal Relationships
Different forms of media are launched to primarily connect with people. The truth is, this web of connection can either harness relationships or break them.

The lack of personal or face-to-face interaction can sometimes lead to misunderstanding. I guess this bit is something that would be hard for media to attain. Although now that I think about it, the emergence of video chatting has now been made possible to bridge that lapse in human to human virtual interaction.

I rarely spend time with social media nowadays and I make it a point to get rid of anything that is detrimental to building my faith. The good thing I gained from it is probably to somehow inspire some people to continue their faith in God.

 Remain in me, as I also remain in you. No branch can bear fruit by itself; it must remain in the vine. Neither can you bear fruit unless you remain in me.

John 15:4-5

When God said to “remain in him, as I also remain in you”, I believe it means to be faithful to Him. If there is one thing we all need to know about God is that He is faithful even if we are not. What He asks from anyone is to be faithful to Him. Because as long as we do, we will surely bear fruits just like how the branch remains in the vine and become fruitful.

We need to anchor our life to Christ and make Him our vine. We must always see ourselves as one with Him. And we must always open our hearts to Him so that he may be able to supply us our needs as branches need its water and nutrients from the vine.

——————————– PRAYER ———————————-

God the Father, my heart is open for your words and for your wisdom to flow into it. However, there will be times when the world will distract me from You and times when I’ll allow myself to be distracted by worldly desires. I pray that you do not allow me to get so distracted. Always take my hand no matter where I go. Thank you so much for remaining in me and I pray that you help me do the same to You. This is an earnest prayer of my heart, in the name of Jesus your Son. Amen.

Chapter 3: How Thirsty Am I?


With a lot of noise in the world, it is too easy to lose sight of God. And I believe this not because many people claim so but largely because I experienced this myself.

I sometimes have a hard time focusing my attention to my alone time with God. Some of the things that clamor my attention include my work, Internet and all other interests. Sometimes, I have all my pen, notebook and Bible ready but I still find myself doing other things outside of the alone time.

Other times, I would find myself talking to God and remembering something and I’d rush to do that errand and leave God.

Communication with God

Since I am mostly alone in my house, I often find myself constantly talking to God about my woes, my pain, my plans, the things I am happy about and my concerns.

Some of my one-liner, constant Whispers to God include:
1. Please God work beside me today.
2. God this is so stressful, make me happy.
3. I don’t get this God, please make me understand.
4. Why am I feeling this way when I should not? Bless my heart oh Lord so I may not feel this way.
5. Guide my family always, bless them and give them good health.

Reflecting on Isaiah 40:28-29
There are some prayers which I do not need answers right away and realize only that they have been answered when His answer has already been given to me. But there are also prayers which until now haven’t been responded yet.

I used to be so anxious before but since I am constantly reminding him to give me a patient heart, I’m able to be at peace while waiting. I would still get jealous with other girls who have received their “answered prayers“, but I trust that He is holding my heart and keeping it. And in His time, He will give it to the man he knows deserves my heart.

In the meantime, I am working to be the better person for that unanswered prayer. In fact, while I am waiting I realized I still have a LOT of things to learn from HIM. I still do not have that sufficient wisdom coming from the Lord. There are a lot of parts about me that need working on. And I am letting God to do His work for my own betterment.

God’s Character
In Isaiah 40: 28-29, we learned about God’s character and His actions towards us. He is giving, He hears everyone and He has understanding that no one on Earth can every understand.

The Lord is the everlasting God. He is the One who created the ends of the Earth. He knew all the things He created and all the man He created. He does not grow tired. He has unfathomable understanding. He is the provider of strength to the weak and weary.

This is just a part of thousands of things about God. But in this passage specifically, I like the fact that the Lord I am serving is the everlasting God. I am just so happy to learn that. Just knowing this humbles me to heavily rely on Him. I am confident that I am really spoken for and there is this Man providing me things.  Apart from my father, I never had (and still doesn’t have) a man in my life to rely with. This saddens a lot of single women, and I am no different.

This time, I need to really bear in mind and heart that the Lord is enough for me. That He alone can cure any woman’s lonely heart. Just like the heart of that woman in the well that Jesus met in Samaria.

Also, knowing that the Lord is the everlasting God comforts me and for some reason, I feel great about myself. Not in a boastful and condescending way. I feel great in a way that I know that the Lord is great. And so am I, by faith not by my actions. 🙂

Reading Isaiah 40:30-31, it says that thowe who waits on the Lord will renew their strength, will soar like eagles, will run and not grow weary, will walk and not be faint.

——– ————————————————– PRAYER ———————————————————-
Father, thank you for being my everlasting God. As I walk this journey towards you, I pray that you renew my strength and keep my focus on You. This is a point in my life where I thirst for Your Word. May you grant me wisdom and patience as I wait on You. In Jesus name. Amen.