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Why Is Stillness Scary?

The LORD will fight for you; you need only to be still.
Exodus 14:14

When the sea is calm, it can be quite eerie.

A few months back, I went to my hometown with a good friend to visit some islands.

There were basically 4 people in a small fisherman boat – 2 boatmen, me and my friend. We left the port at 7 am and luckily, the sea was calm. So calm that about an hour into the sea, we suddenly felt something was quite different.

Everything was perfect – the wind was still, the place was quite, the boat is stable and it was glassy on water.

Psalm 107:29 – He stilled the storm to a whisper; the waves of the sea were hushed.

That stillness of the water scared me. There was no wind, there was no wave…just pure calmness.

And THAT freaked me out.

The same way I cannot stay still when something chaotic is happening to me. I need to do something, I need to solve the problem, I need to hurry. I have a lot of things on my mind that I worry too much. I forget the most important thing – to look at Jesus, put my worries in His hands and be STILL.

I am not saying that we actually don’t do anything and just lie down and wait. What we need is prayer – heartfelt prayer to God so He could open our eyes to what we should do – in His way, not our way.

Why is stillness scary?

Let’s face it – we are used to not being still. Personally, I get scared when everything is going so smoothly in my life because I would always think something is surely going to go wrong. What an awful way of thinking, right?

Then I learned that I should put all my worries to God and just put my TRUST in HIM.

Why are we scared to be still?

It must be because we lack faith. If we have more faith in the Lord, we won’t worry about such things. We fail to see the beauty and stillness that’s right in front of us because we are too busy thinking about what’s coming ahead.

In Mark 4:39-40, Jesus asked His disciples about being afraid of the turbulent:

And He got up and rebuked the wind and said to the sea, “Hush, be still.” And the wind died down and it became perfectly calm. And He said to them, “Why are you afraid? Do you still have no faith?”

At that moment, I failed to appreciate the stillness of the sea because I lack faith. Because if I have sufficient faith, I know that Jesus will not let anything happen to me. After all, He can command the waves and the wind and they  would obey Him. After all, He has the authority over nature.

So the next time you are overwhelmed with worries and fears, remember Jesus when he rebuked the wind and sea. Remember Him as he asked, “Why are you afraid? Do you still have no faith?”

With Jesus, nothing is impossible. All we need is faith in Him.


The Lost Pieces of Yourself

Originally written for a friend but I dedicate this to myself as well as to all other women who are broken and have been broken. To those who have lost pieces of themselves and have finally found these pieces in Jesus. And if you haven’t found them yet, in Him you will. 🙂

My beloved,

How are you, my beloved? And I am not asking how you are physically but I demand to know your thoughts, dreams and frustrations. Life, as you might have realized by now, gets more complex and deep as we get older. We inevitably give in to unnecessary thoughts planted by the devil and easily get frustrated with unclaimed dreams. With all these things, you only have to know one thing: You are loved.

You are spoken for. Someone already loves you much greater than any other men could ever have. He is loving you right now and will never stop. He knows all your life’s rotten pieces, He knows the little things that can make your heart flutter and He knows the things that marred your untainted heart. He knows your past, present and future.

I cannot love you like Jesus does but I love you. In my own way, that is.

You are maybe unaware but I used to admire your smile. Your demeanor towards life. The way you commit to Him. I looked up to how you spread His love to the people you met. I could never do that. How could I? I never knew Him as much as you do.

You knew how to smile for no reason. You took life so lightly as if you had Someone so powerful you can always rely on.

You walked with your bouncy feet like you were on clouds, completely unaware that you were trudging the noisy lane of the city and not a meadow blooming with vibrant flowers.

You have a world of your own, so unlike the world we live in. I remember muttering to myself, “I wish I could smile like her.”

Your entirety seemed to sparkle. You were not aware of the beauty you have.

You see, that time I had what other people would kill to have. I’ve got family, work, money, friends and a relationship. I almost had everything. The only thing I didn’t have is the one you were blessed to have.

Jesus. Faith. Love for God. They are one and the same to me. When we found each other, I easily opened my heart to you.

My heart could tell how lovely you are. Everyone seemed to think so. Guys and ladies alike thought you were admirable for the sincere love you have for Him.

You never knew how beautiful you were. Your soul was radiating with love, grace and acceptance. Your laugh was meek and mild. Your words were but a tongue of fire. The brokenhearted ones took refuge in your calm and comforting words.

Perhaps that very same sparkle you had brought you closer to that man.

How long has it been? How long did you stay in that damp, rotting place of misery you call moving on? It seems like it kept pulling you back every time you stepped out. And you let it.

Getting lost in love: I’ve been lost in love and I unintentionally lost myself in it. Little by little. In unnoticeable amount. Until I let my world be defined by that person.

Love is great. It is the best gift you can ever receive in this world. However, putting so much faith in it over the One who gifted you with Love will get you stranded, if not lost.

And if you are already lost in love or starting to lose who you are for the love that has not even started yet or has just started to bud, how lost will you be if you completely have it?

I must tell you, love can be intoxicating. For this reason, the devil can use that very love to destroy you. To poison your mind and soul, deplete you with hope and leave you like an empty, calloused shell of yourself. Don’t let that happen.

Love right. Yes, there is a right way of loving. One that involves God in it. If you believe it is right, fight for it. But bear in mind that you both should be fighting for it and not you alone. Build a relationship with it. And should time comes when the relationship crumbles, take it as divine diversion. Think about it. Cry about it, lament about it. Be angry because of it. And never every forget to Pray for it. Then leave it. Your part is finished. Anything that involves something out of your control, leave it to Him.

I will not tell you to guard your heart. Jesus is already doing that for you. And for every failed tries in love, do not ever forget to send Him thanks.

What I will tell you instead is for you to love every chance you’ve got. But shed your tears for the ones who deserve it. Those who sincerely cared for you and loved you just as much as you love them.

Be true to yourself. Do not make justifications for others so they’d be uplifted. For men, it is what it is.

Never evade the truth especially if it smacks you right in the face. Truth hurts but covering it up won’t make it any less painful.

I am sorry, I should have told you about this sooner. I should have explained more. Open your mind to the wisdom of the experienced. They never meant harm.

I try so hard to bring back the girl I used to admire. Maybe I am not the one who can bring her back. Perhaps the Man who gave His all to have you is the only One who can do the Job. Nope, not perhaps. Definitely.

You’re right. We are all on our different journeys but I would love to see you get back on the right track, with that hopeful attitude, blessed soul, graceful demeanor and humble heart.

Should things be, then grow rightfully. In His ways and not the worldly ways. If change is imperative, by all means embrace the change. But My Dear if I could ask you one thing: Change into a woman that you are and should be, not a mere derivative of the 20th century world. We have lots of them, there’s too few of you.

But if you think you haven’t changed in all those years, then forgive me. I must have a different perception of you for a long time. I have you misconstrued for years. Hopefully, you have shown me the real you for all the times we were together. If not, then what you are is but a convoluted construct of my own views.

If you should change, I plead you retain the core of your entire being. If you should grow, take your core as the roots and blossom bountifully. I tell you, you will bear sweet fruits.

Last thing. You asked me how to be cold-hearted. To be honest, I don’t know. And quite frankly, I never want to know. Probably, my heart is just at peace because Someone told me I am spoken for. And I believe that.

You know which people inspire others the most? Those who do not conform to how the world ask them to run their lives but to the Word which is the Truth. They are the ones who walk believing that a noisy lane in the city is a meadow blooming with vibrant flowers.

May the Almighty God be with you always.


The Lost Pieces of Yourself



Chapter 4: The Effects of the Media Revolution

Media forms such as television, smart phones, print media, radio and Internet rule the world right now. It is almost impossible for anyone not to be connected to any part of the world.

In my case, the Internet and mobile phone have a huge impact on my every day life – whether inside or outside of my home.


Media and My Walk with Christ
It is hard to classify media as something negative or positive to someone’s journey with the Lord. What it brings is impact into your life. Whether that is a negative or a positive impact, it all depends on the person.

Some people claim that media has greatly affected their life negatively. For me, I highly think that the measure of influence is dictated by how much the person is willing to be influenced. This is an individual’s personal discretion.

I believe that one of the negative effects of these forms of media for me is distraction. Since there is a plethora of information available online, it can sometimes be difficult to sift the ones that really matter from those that can be considered as superficial needs of an individual.

Time is also another thing taken by social media right now. Instead of spending some quiet time with the Lord, I find myself talking to people and friends or checking out all amusing stories and pictures all the time that I forget to have that important time with God.

It also inevitably let myself be surrounded with gossips, unhealthy comparisons, dislike and perversion – things that were mentioned by the Lord in Proverbs 4:24 “Keep your mouth free of perversity; keep corrupt talk far from your lips.

Good Side Of Internet

Internet allows me to connect with all great people who follows God. Meeting and listening to sermons of certain Pastors and learning how to study the Bible from different godly women helped and encourage my faith.

I do not have any mentors so being able to listen to them talk online and connect with them online, I kind of form accountability in studying the word of God. It is great to be inspired by these experienced pastors who have been obviously anointed.

At the same time, some of the things that I cannot easily access have now been accessible. I can always read the Bible anywhere because of different apps.

Media and Personal Relationships
Different forms of media are launched to primarily connect with people. The truth is, this web of connection can either harness relationships or break them.

The lack of personal or face-to-face interaction can sometimes lead to misunderstanding. I guess this bit is something that would be hard for media to attain. Although now that I think about it, the emergence of video chatting has now been made possible to bridge that lapse in human to human virtual interaction.

I rarely spend time with social media nowadays and I make it a point to get rid of anything that is detrimental to building my faith. The good thing I gained from it is probably to somehow inspire some people to continue their faith in God.

 Remain in me, as I also remain in you. No branch can bear fruit by itself; it must remain in the vine. Neither can you bear fruit unless you remain in me.

John 15:4-5

When God said to “remain in him, as I also remain in you”, I believe it means to be faithful to Him. If there is one thing we all need to know about God is that He is faithful even if we are not. What He asks from anyone is to be faithful to Him. Because as long as we do, we will surely bear fruits just like how the branch remains in the vine and become fruitful.

We need to anchor our life to Christ and make Him our vine. We must always see ourselves as one with Him. And we must always open our hearts to Him so that he may be able to supply us our needs as branches need its water and nutrients from the vine.

——————————– PRAYER ———————————-

God the Father, my heart is open for your words and for your wisdom to flow into it. However, there will be times when the world will distract me from You and times when I’ll allow myself to be distracted by worldly desires. I pray that you do not allow me to get so distracted. Always take my hand no matter where I go. Thank you so much for remaining in me and I pray that you help me do the same to You. This is an earnest prayer of my heart, in the name of Jesus your Son. Amen.